What does that even mean?

Well this is a turn of events. I can’t say that I’ve ever blogged before but hey there’s a first time for everything right? Let’s see how this goes!

I like to think of myself as an optimistic person, but I have been known to be very dramatic at times. I say this because when stress and anxiety start taking over my life there is not one positive thing I could possibly encounter that would make me feel better about my miserable life at the time. 

Essentially that is why I decided to create this blog specifically; to look at the positive things in life. Becoming the Mustard Seed is a way to release all the countless emotions I may or may not encounter within a single day. It is a way to “stop and smell the roses” so to speak. It’s the little things that get all of us through our toughest days. Someone smiling at you when you’re feeling down, or maybe someone holding the door open for you, or maybe someone even just complimenting you out of the blue which could end up making your whole day that much better.

            Moving forward, yesterday in particular wasn’t bad. Actually the past few days haven’t been bad. I just have a big tendency to think way too much. Does that happen to anyone else? I’ve had worse days as I’m sure we all have. It was actually just recently that I felt a meltdown slowly creeping upon me, but I didn’t let it get to me. The funny thing is though, when I stop to think about what exactly is causing me so much grief, it is never as bad as it seems. Half the time it’s just me overreacting and over-analyzing the slightest issue that comes my way. Today was nice though. The people around me were in a good mood, which rubbed off on me. It’s always nice to be surrounded be people who can make you feel better about whatever is going on in your life. Class was good as well! Since it's only been the first few weeks of school, I felt the stress slowly starting to creep back up. I’m sure everyone gets a little intimidated in a new class so I can definitely relate to that feeling over the past couple of weeks. It was tough because I felt like I was completely on my own. There was really no one I knew in my first few classes so that in itself was enough to make me feel like this semester would be tougher than the others, but again, that was probably just me being dramatic.

            I’m trying this new thing where I attempt, to the best of my abilities, to keep a positive outlook on a grim situation. Notice I said “to the best of my abilities” because, as I said before, I consider myself a very optimistic person, but I falter sometimes, as does everyone. But one thing that many people don’t seem to understand is that it is perfectly okay to not be okay. We are human. We are prone to emotional turmoil and, because of that, we tend to be more negative than positive at times. This is exactly why we need to be the change that we want to see in others. This is exactly why we need to become the mustard seed.

            Well I believe that’s enough rambling for now! 

            For my first time blogging, I found this to be quite invigorating. I have to say it was both rewarding and comforting. I feel we all get too caught up in having to force ourselves to deal with our daily struggles, but for me personally, I actually found writing this blog to be a type of relief. 

            Remember people, it’s the little things in life that get us through the day, so take the time to actually stop and smell the roses, both literally and figuratively!